Thanks to gpa, kev and babes for the nice getaway to JB.
(yes gpa, thats wot i got from you)
A nice 5 stars pan pac hotel where babes and me got to order in room service and basically just relaxed for two days.
So we did nothing but eat and sleep and basically chilled out.
It was nice to sit around and do nothing but i figured not everyone liked that.
I do though.
Anyway, we ended the whole thing with a seafood dinner with SO, exo and akane who joined us the next day.
Ahhh... even though it wasn't exactly bintan, but hey, this is the first time i get to order in room service.
So thank you all. *beams*

Been trying to plan a trip in my head to spain.
Just a trip by myself.
Right now i have to consider the timing, the finances and holiday work schedule.
I wish i could just drop and go.
But i guess that is not reality.
Somehow, i hope the more i plan, the closer i am at materializing it.
Time! I need some time!

Nephews enjoyed Jimmy Neutron.
I was too busy trying to answer their rapid questions to really enjoy to show though.

Funny things my nephew said:
him:"How come this one (my gorillaz cd) have asiaworks tv (i think he meant MTVasia awards) logo? who is this?"
me: "its called gorillaz"
him:"you mean the one in the zoo can sing also?"

I like being around my nephews. They can make me laugh without even trying. Somehow everything seems less complicated around them. Every little observations they make, every remarks, makes the reality i shared with them much more interesting and light-hearted.

I held their hands, thinking to protect them, but they ended leading me to places i have never seen.

A short rhyme, dedicated to an old buddie:

Dimsum.
Yum.

It's my nephew's seventh birthday today and his parents invited his friends/relatives to pasir ris park for a picnic. It was very windy but the weather was wonderful, with clear blue skies and sunshine. There was lots of food and party things but i was too lethagic to do much. Spent most of my time lying on the poncho staring at the palm leaves and enjoyed the breeze while pretending i am relaxing at a resort somewhere. Pasir ris park was quite nice. There was lotsa families there with pitched tents and bbqs. We rented some bikes and cycled around, looking at the mangrove swamp and the different wildlife such as kingfishers. I haven't bought a present for my nephew yet. At first i was thinking of taking him and the rest of his cousins to disney on ice. But in the end they asked to watch Jimmy neutron instead. As one kid said "disney is boring". So Jimmy it is. I shall be looking at the tickets tomorrow and trying to gather the little ones off for a movie outing.

My cat does a belly flop
everytime i speak to it "firmly".

Watch Ice Age last night.
Quite funny.
Especially Scrat.
And that was the fastest talking-moving sloth i have ever seen.
Must have evolved a great deal since then.
I think my nephews and nieces will enjoy it.

Thank you babes for the lovely pasta dinner.
You really shouldn't have fought with me over it though you know?
And I thought it would have been nice if i bought you dinner to cheer you up.

Yesterday was a good day.
Collegues got me a cake for belated bday.
Some kids from my social and communication group asked if i was better from my illness.
They noticed that i was gone and knew that i was sick.
It felt good becos' alot of our kids are so unaware of others.
Had a treat of sushi dinner from serene, my speech therapist collegue who joined RC the same day as me, except she is in MDSS and i am in BSS.
We are pretty good friends, attending dance class together till she hurt her back recently.
Then we went for drinks at borders and talked about stuff.
SO turned up and the conversation turned to teaching in special ed schools and mainstream schools.
SO told us about a kid from his school that sounded quite suspiciously to fit into the spectrum.
Bugging him to talk to the form teacher to try get some help, perhaps get the educational psych from MOE on the case.
Hate to see kids just labelled as discipline case when they are obviously not being helped.
Seems like the kid do okie for school but just have a habit of walking round and round the school.
He was punished and yet have no idea why he was being punished.
It sounded like most have given up on him.
Sad.
But i guess SO is right to say that sometimes it is difficult for people to do anything.
It is just so infuriating.
Went to watch The Shipping News later.
Didn't think In the Bedroom kinda heavy drama is suitable for two tired people at 9.45pm after a hard day's work.
Turns out okie.
Though Kevin Spacey was forgetable in the role.
The little girl was pretty good though.

Back to work after all that MCs.
Feeling extremely tired and nose still blocked.
But at last had some time to catch up on my work
and finished making a book for tomorrow's TEACCH coregroup meeting.
Going to try out the book on my ET child tomorrow morning to see how it works out.

Met up with snow, dave, kev and babes on sunday for tea.
The food was so-so but company was great.
Its nice to catch up with friends and share gossips.
Thanks for tea! *smiles*

I would like to have Amelie's and Spirited away vcd.
Love the soundtrack and whimsical-ness (?) of Amelie.
Am a sucker for fairytales.

Bandit was rather good.
The final heist was brilliant.

Last night i expounded a whole warped theory about attractiveness, intrinsic and extraneous variables on decision making for relationships on a darwinian plane and something about standard measurements.

I thought i was on to something.
Pity, i've forgotten much of what was said after i took my medication and fell asleep.

A friend asked if i am ever worried that i might just fucked up my life.

Oh ya. Constantly.
I tried, consciously and unconsciouly, to remain a safe little human statistic amidst this whirlpool
just so i may minimize, to put it simply, "fucking up my life".
But there are days when some anti-establishment little demon will turn around and ask
"Just what the heck are you afraid of?"
Well, sir, i am afraid i will screw up my life, my future, my possibility of having security, disappointing my parents and all that the rest of society aspired for me.
Caught between preserving my what little balance i have found and throwing myself to free-fall in body and mind,
i think i will just hang here a while and enjoy the tension of indecision.

Alegria was mavellous.
My jaws were strained cos' they spent most of the evening hanging down.

Thanks for the birthday present.
x

declog?
unclog?
like a drain? pipe?

Basically i wish for the same thing year after year on my birthday.
Not that it ever came true.
But still, i better not jinx it by revealing it to everyone else.
So here it goes again...

On a frivolous note, i do wish that my nose will declog soon.

Thanks to all that remembered...
*sniff* *sniff*

26 and counting.
Oh to be 20 again.